In this period of waiting, I decided to post what I wrote in a journal shortly after I got the call explaining that something didn’t look right in my annual mammogram. This was written the day before I went in for a recheck.
“I feel so blessed. We’re sitting at a picnic table by Suttle Lake after hiking three miles around the lake. It was a beautiful hike through Ponderosa pines. We saw signs of a fairly recent fire by the lake–burned tree trunks and cleared undergrowth. Fortunately, it barely touched the last guardian trees around the lake, and regrowth has begun.
Vine maples are starting to turn sunflower yellow and cherry red, brightening the western side of the lake. The wind has come up now, lapping waves against the shore, blowing cool against our faces.
Last night we stayed at Lower Bridge Campground on the bank of the Metolius. It was so peaceful! The river sang us a lullaby all night long, and I didn’t even mind waking in the night, becuase the river sounds were so reassuring. I love the quiet of the outdoors, which is really a soft medley of bird, breeze, and river melodies.
Tomorrow is my mammogram recheck, but I’m really not concerned. It will likely be nothing, and even if it is something, I know God will be with me through it. Apparently He’s grown my faith without me even knowing it, because I’m not afraid, and that is unusual for me. That could change, of course, but so far I just feel blessed and at peace.”