Sunny Day

The sun is shining, a cool breeze is blowing, and leaves are turning gold and scarlet. It’s a beautiful autumn day in Oregon. Yesterday I walked slowly down the street with my husband, enjoying the warmth of the sun on my skin, glad to be out in the world. My husband stopped once to gently lift a wooly bear caterpillar off the road and set it in the grass a few feet away, where it would be safe.

The surgeon called with my final pathology report: 1.2 cm (a nice, small tumor), grade 2 (has something to do with how fast or how much the cells mutated), and best of all: they got it all, and the lymph nodes were clear. It was good news, and we rejoiced.

Today my head hurts, and I feel tired. Funny how I was able to stay cheerful going into cancer surgery, and now a little everyday headache makes me feel crabby and out of sorts. I’ve found that happening many times. God gives extra strength for the big challenges in life, and then I try to handle the little irritations on my own and fail. And yet it seems selfish to pray for my little headache when others I know are in surgery today or dealing with other serious problems. But perhaps, along with praying for them, I could ask for a little attitude help, to be able to look beyond my headache and fatigue. If I can praise God in the storm, then I certainly should be able to praise him through the everyday annoyances. Time for another walk in the sunshine!

About susanmaas

I grew up in the green state of Oregon, coming to love the birds, flowers, and other wild things of the woods. Our family homeschooled for sixteen years, spending wonderful vacations at the beach or camping in the western United States and British Columbia. For most of my adult life, I have been a part-time writer, creating personal experience stories, homeschooling articles, devotionals, Sunday school curriculum, and children's stories and books. I enjoy looking for signs of the eternal in nature and the small, everything events in our lives.
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4 Responses to Sunny Day

  1. Diane Smith says:

    Hi, Susan: I was very happy to hear that your surgery went well and that it hadn’t spread to the lymph nodes. That is a very good report to hear.
    Here’s wishing you a speedy recovery and many blessings from our Heavenly Father.

  2. susanmaas says:

    Thanks so much for your comments. God is good! Have you been through something like this yourself? If so, please feel free to share here. I have received so much encouragement from others who have been through similar experiences.

  3. Diane Smith says:

    No, I have not been through anything like this, but unfortunately I’ve watched others who have. I feel great empathy for you, Susan, as I have for each of them. Life’s full of challenges and our health issues are some of the most difficult to deal with. I think it’s because we like to have control and we lose that when our health is in question.
    We both know though that we have a loving and caring Heavenly Father who wants the very best for us.In time of need He’s there with open arms to calm our fears and to bless us with those things that we are in need of. I will continue to pray for you and ask that His blessings will be given to you, Susan.

  4. susanmaas says:

    Thanks so much, Diane! I am so overwhelmed by the love and prayers I am receiving from others, and the strength God has given through this time. I agree that it is hard to feel we are out of control; it helps to know that God still IS in control.

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