Waiting. Everyone hates it. I hate it. Yesterday I tried to make appointments for my MRI and surgery. I waited for them to call back. Three times I called. After 6 hours, no one had returned my calls, which were, I admit,┬ábecoming increasingly desperate-sounding. “Please, please, please…” My frustration kept growing, and I wondered if I would ever get my appointments. And then today, suddenly, everything was set. MRI tomorrow, chest xray the next day, surgery in six days. Now the waiting is compressed into just a few days, and my stomach feels like a tight spring. I’m nervous, a bit scared, finding it hard to concentrate on work and other important things.

There will be more waiting. Waiting for results of the tests. Waiting to see if I need chemo. Waiting for the next mammogram to make sure the cancer is gone. But there is one way I might be able to make the waiting more bearable, and that is learning to find God in the waiting. If I can praise Him and trust Him, and even learn to rest in Him, waiting could be a peaceful time, like lying in a green meadow waiting for the stars to come out. Lord, be the center of my waiting. Help me to trust You.

About susanmaas

I grew up in the green state of Oregon, coming to love the birds, flowers, and other wild things of the woods. Our family homeschooled for sixteen years, spending wonderful vacations at the beach or camping in the western United States and British Columbia. For most of my adult life, I have been a part-time writer, creating personal experience stories, homeschooling articles, devotionals, Sunday school curriculum, and children's stories and books. I enjoy looking for signs of the eternal in nature and the small, everything events in our lives.
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3 Responses to Waiting

  1. Robin Bayne says:

    Hi there–I am a 5 year survivor of DCIS. Sending you prayer for recovery and comfort.

  2. susanmaas says:

    Thanks so much! It is always encouraging to hear from those who have been through this and done well. ­čÖé

  3. susanmaas says:

    Robin, do you have any advice for those starting out on this “adventure?” What helped you the most?

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